I kind of can't believe how happy I am right now.

Bombshell about to drop.

I've been dealing with off and on depression since high school. 

I've tried and am currently trying so many different things to help myself. 

I'm not in the mood to go into much detail about anything and don't know if I will ever want it documented, but today has been a very, very good day. And like I said, I can't really believe how happy and content I seem to be with my life right now. 

Wanna hear about it? 

Today I went to school, and realized I think I have finally figured out what I want to get my degree in. This is HUGE. It's an enormous stress in my daily life. I talk to so many people who are in programs, or who have known what they've wanted to be their whole lives. I've already switched more times than I would have liked to.

Next, I got a call from a family friend who was giving me the number of someone that used to be in my ward that now lives up here in case I need to call someone in an emergency. This is twice that I've had someone contact me with an emergency contact number. I feel so loved and thought of. It's a good feeling. 

I was understanding math for the most part today! For those of you who struggle with math like I do, you know that that in itself makes for a good day! 

I got a call stating that we could move into the new place I found tomorrow! We're getting out of the ghetto and it feels so good! We'll be closer to the school and our jobs, we won't have to bike uphill 2 miles to school every day (no more backpack shaped sweat mark on my back, yay!), and it's cheaper, and bigger. Score.  :)

And to top it all off, I logged on to read the blogs I follow and TWO amazing bloggers had such awesome, happy, videos to share. It was the icing on the cake. 

Please enjoy, 

Say Something Nice, from CUP OF JO

and Expressions of Love, from Sydney @ The Daybook

Sometimes...

You just gotta stay up until 315ish in the morning with your awesome roommate talking about boys, having a few laugh attacks, drinking tea, making cornbread, and trying to kill enormous flys.

Even if you were planning on hitting the sack early. 

Chances are you'll go to sleep with a smile on your face.

My insight on the classroom.

So school started up. 

I had no mommy to take my annual first-day-of-school-picture. 

That's a bit sad.

What may or may not be more sad was that I didn't care half as much about what I looked like for the first day like I did for the first 12 school years of my life. 

*INTERRUPTION FROM ORIGINAL THOUGHT TRAIN*

Boy that is sitting next to me, if you are indeed staring at everything I am writing like I think you are, could you please stop? You can read it when I'm done at The-walkover.blogspot.com. Thanks bud. 

   

Ok, we're back to the original thought now. 

The thing that hasn't changed about the first day of school is the anticipation of wanting to know who will be in your classes. It used to be, will my friends be in my class? Will my crush be in my class? 

These days I know approximately 8 people who attend Weber State and I knew they didn't have any classes with me. The anticipation is directed more toward the potentials.

Is my newest comrade sitting among these new faces? 

Will I end up dating, possibly even *gasp* kissing one of these guys?

And don't deny it, we all know that if there is even one potential romantic interest sitting in that room, the class just got that much more exciting.  

Yes, even if it's math class. 

Now, this could be a good or  bad thing depending on your actions. 

Luckily for me it's a good thing. I'm more likely to attend every class, pay attention and participate, if only to bring the eyes of the Potential on me for just a minute.

I would love to say that I am a girl who goes to school purely for the education and wasn't interested in boys right now. 

But that's just not true, is it? 

 

21.

My last post was an update and I failed to mention that I have turned the coveted age of 21. 

I guess it doesn't matter much when you don't drink or gamble. 

My birthday was pretty awesome. In the morning (6am to be precise) I woke up to go to Zions with Fran and Ember. The plan was to hike the subway, but there was only one permit left. 

We improvised and ended up hiking around a couple different trails and having a generally great time.

Later that night I had a BBQ with family and friends and ate delicious ice cream cake and brownies.

Now I'm ready to use this new I.D of mine and go hit up the bingo tables in Mesquite. I hear that's where It's at.

Welp.

It's been a while. 

That could mean a few things.

Either I've been busy having way too much fun, or been so bored I don't have a thing worth documenting, or I don't have internet where I currently reside.

It's all three, peeps.

Also, out of my three cameras I own not one of them is in fully working order and I hate not having pictures to go along with these posts. So until I can be more entertaining (I don't want to read these posts when I'm eighty and be bored, ya know) I will just give a quick update.

-I made the big move to Ogden, Utah. How long have you been trying to convince me to move up here, Jess? Well Ogden is ghetto. I fully intend to have a great time while living here, but I can assure you all it will only be for the semester.

-I ride my bike everywhere. It's fun and I'm going to be sad when the snow forces me onto the bus system.

- I went to Seven Peaks waterpark and was very impressed with myself for going down the two steepest and scariest slides. You're welcome for the picture of that hottie pants.

-I buy my own groceries now! I love grocery shopping more than the average joe.

-I just finished reading Little Women and now I want to talk like they do all the time. Wouldn't it be just grand? To address one another as dearest, dearie, and dear at all hours of the day? Ah, I wish it were so.

See?? It would be awesome.

-School starts next Monday and I will have a degree when the semester is through! Yay for associates.

-I've been having a fabulous time living with one of my best friends Fran and living so close to my other best friends, Ember and Jess! We've been hiking, to the fair, to free concerts in Salt Lake, to the lake, and many more adventures to come. Yay for having girlfriends.

Well, that'll do.